OK so blogging really has some down sides. On Day 28 I talked about my last words and how I want my last words to my husband to be full of love and kindness and how I should treat all my words as my last words because we don't know when our lives will end. SO what do I do today, just two simple days after I write that - I'm short tempered and unkind. Don't read into this that Tim did something and I reacted. It's not even that justifiable. I was grouchy and feeling stressed out about our up coming move and I aloud my emotions to control my actions and my attitude.
My friend and I where chatting on Sunday about what Paul writes in Romans 7:15 "For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate." How is that I can know what I want to do and what I should do and then allow myself so easily to fall into the trap of my emotions and do what I hate? In Luke 6:45 it is says "For out the overflow his heart his mouth speaks" hmmmm so this is how I really see the state of my heart I look at my words.
I am very, very thankful for gracious God . The last part of 2 Cor 6:2 says "now is the day of salvation" I am so glad that I can repent. I can see my actions and see my heart and ask God to change me. Today. Today I can continue to receive Christ salvation, the payment for my sins. God continues to save me from myself, from my sinful nature. I am thankful that salvation is a continuing act, that "we continue to work out our salvation" (Phil 2:12)
I am also thankful for a very patient husband.
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